My name is Mary Ann… I am diagnosed with sever clinical depression and severe clinical anxiety. Toss in panic disorder and I am one heck of a mess…
This is my 7th year and now with this new tragedy in my American life, I am having trouble hanging on.
I do hope by sharing and supporting others, that it will also help me….selfish as that might sound….it really isn’t.
Glad I found this group tho.
Many Blessings to all of you.
There I was going though some of the e-mail and came up with you.
I to have had depression for probably 25 or 30 years. Treatment the last 15. I have been on many different drugs that were bought including zoloft only worked for a while. Then paxel and higher doses then the 20’s and that wore out. Still have very bad boughts with depression daily. Sometime don’t know what to do. Church and family sometimes make it worse. Doctors are only guessing in my mind. still I go on…
My name is Cleton 43 years old live outside chicago.I have been
dealing with depression from about the age of 10. Some of it was step
fathers saying things like your shit all the time to beatings. I
wanted him to die for so long the one day he did. and I spent 2 weeks
in my bedroom closet. never fit in with any one group of kids and so
felt ridiculed. as time passed things got worse in my teens would go
to parties and in half hour they would break up because I depressed
everyone. here I am mid 40’s and know people are there for me, but
feel so empty. no sense of being loved or wanted have been seeing
doctors on and off phycs that is for 15 years. go over life and then
How to deal with things day to day and not knowing if the
next turn is my last.I really never thought I would see age 18, but
here I am and dont know why.Zoloft & paxel dont work for me..
One of the docs that I tried several years ago suggested – demanded, actually
– that I walk every day for 1/2 hour first thing in the morning. That advice
was some of the best I have ever gotten.
My walks are leisurely, what we here in Alabama call a mosey. At first they
were painfully slow. I can now walk pretty good, and have no trouble staying
on my feet most of the day if necessary. Buy the best walking shoes that you
can afford (SAS Shoes work best for me).
I’m not about to give up on the drugs, but the walks are free, quite
enjoyable, and seem to help a lot.
Paxil and Prozac, both SSRI’s, have been shown to be stimulants.
These drugs have been compared to cocaine and amphetamines. they all
have the same basic effect, same side effects, and are all really
really bad. if you’re going to spend the money on drugs to make you
happy, coke is cheaper than paxil. (i am NOT advocating the use of
any illegal drugs!) i’ve been reading peter breggin, md’s
book “talking back to prozac”, and i’ve also been doing my own
research in psychopharmacology (the study of mind-affecting drugs).
the only difference that i can see between coke/meth and ssri’s is
that one is legal and one is not. a lawsuit was filed against GSK,
the makers of paxil, for a reason: PAXIL IS DESTRUCTIVE. it helped
with the depression, yes. but all the physical side effects i have 4
years after starting the drug do not make it worth it. my mother
asked the other day, “would you rather have taken the paxil with all
its side effects to help your depression, or suffer through the
depression?” i honestly had difficulty answering, because without
paxil i might have committed suicide. yet, WITH the paxil, i might
have committed suicide — yes, this is a “side effect” of paxil! it
actually can CAUSE depression, suicide, violence, road rage… and
also mania, because it is a stimulant. being on paxil is a constant
high. i know a 19-year old who begged me for paxil because he like
the high it gave him. people are actually taking SSRI’s just to get
high!! the black market of prescription drugs no longer consists of
just pain pills (vicodin, percocet, etc.) and benzos (valium,
xanax)…now there is actually a market for antidepressants. and
that scares the hell out of me.
i feel like that a lot of the time — the smallest thing goes wrong
and i want to die. i actually try to concoct mixes of different pills
and alcohol and cocaine and stuff in my head, but i never do it.
when you start to feel like that, call a friend who understands —
make sure you have at least two people you can always call, even in
the middle of the night. if you can’t call anyone, get online and
rant here. the reason prozac is worse when you don’t take it is
because it’s a really bad drug. go to www.prozactruth.com … please
don’t do anything drastic – there is always a way to work things out.
Welcome to the group! i hope we can help you out; we are always here
for you. as for your ex, just forget him. it’s really hard, and it
will take time, but it will happen. you’ll always remember your first
love. i’m 25 and still haven’t found my soul mate. but i have found
that a lot of men are jerks. a lot of guys are going to try to use
you for sex, they will lie and say that they love you just to get in
your pants. you need to be careful. if you want to email me
privately about boy stuff, or anything, feel free anytime.
as for your depression, there are things that will help your
depression, things besides drugs like prozac. just take a deep breath
and remember, things will get better…maybe not right away, but you
have to take it one day at a time. i’ve been so depressed before that
i wanted to die, but i couldn’t do it… i always have to find out
what tomorrow brings — maybe it brings a phat check in the mail,
maybe mr. right will come knocking on my door. girl, you are young
and have a lot of life ahead of you. please remember that you can
always log on and write to us, and we’ll always be here for you.
I thought about the trimix but opted out because
of the scar tissue that would eventually develop. I
haven’t tried the “Muse” yet. I think I will give doc
Moskowitz a call this morning. The pump works, but it is
Muse works pretty good but i have a hard
time to get my insurance company to pay for it The
cost is 125.00 for four treatments. The problem is
they don’t want to pay and the muse but my
doctor said this is theropy so they should pay.Where do
you get the pump at I will have to try it.
I bring to your attention the results achieved by the original 23
patients assigned to take Minocin:
15 of the 23 patients (65%) had improved their symptoms by 50% at
5 of the 23 patients (22%) achieved a remission within 1 year and
no longer received any therapy.
The 1999 O’Dell study follows the same patients and reports the
results they achieved after 4 years of taking Minocin. Here are
the numbers taken from the 1999 O’Dell study:
Results of the minocycline-treated group after 4 years:
– 13 patients (65%) improved their symptoms by more than 75%, 8
patients achieving a remission;
– 8 patients (40%) fulfilled remission criteria without DMARDs or
– 10 patients (50%) never required any DMARD or steroids;
– 9 patients (45%) taking prednisone therapy in the open portion
of the study (after the first 3 or 6 months);
– 11 patients (55%) still taking Minocin after 4 years of
– 4 patients (20%) reported skin hyperpigmentation;
– 3 patients (15%) discontinued minocycline because of
Reduction in the number of tender and swollen joints for patients
who were responders to minocycline:
– 31.1 tender and swollen joints, on average, at the start of
– 13.5 tender and swollen joints, on average, after 3 months;
– 5 tender and swollen joints, on average, after 9 months;
– 1 tender or swollen joint, on average, after 18 months.
Beyond the gradual reduction in joint swelling and pain, outlined
above, how many remissions were achieved?
5 patients achieved a remission in less than a year, and 3 more
patients achieved a remission over the next 3 years. The results
are not proportional to the time you spend on Minocin.